Thursday, October 08, 2009

Trying day

Today was rough. Mommy wasn't the best mommy she could be today, but we survived. We were awake at 5:30, achieved the morning nap via the cry it out method, which I hated, and which I am sure the rest of the people on this floor did not appreciate, did not achieve an afternoon nap at all because Mommy was not going to do the cry it out thing again. FINALLY got her down after a bit of Motrin (I wonder if the teething is contributing...I mean, it isn't like her whole existence changed this week or anything, but she is teething) and A LOT of pacing. Crap. She's awake.

Got her back down. exhaustion won out.

My salmon just arrived. Mama ate a sweet bread thing late htis monrning, a few hand-few Cheerios, some beef dumplings in broth this afternoon, and now salmon. I am dying for a salad and it might be safe at this hotel, but I am not taking chances. The only thing worse than a 16 hour journey with a 14-month old who you barely know is doing it while food poisoned. I have been crossing my fingers all week.

On the good side, we played, we took two good walks around the hotel, we snuggled, and we had our first tub bath.

I may check back in tonight. Or not. I still need to launder shirts in the tub, something that I was planning to do during the afternoon nap that didn't happen. She was so fussy and cranky and clingy this afternoon, that I couldn't do it while she was awake. We may have come to the point most of us adoptive mommies come to where we are the only person they know in their upside down world and we need to be visible at ALL moments. We'll see.

I should have shelled out yesterday for them to launder a shirt. The thought of getting on my hands and knees in front of the tub tonight makes me want to curl up into a ball.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

My mom (RN and mother of 4) used to give fussy babies a dose of baby aspirin (use infant or children's Tylenol now). Sometimes they hurt and can't tell you.

And I've found for me and the GK that Tylenol works better for fevers while Motrin/Advil work better for other aches and pains.

Sure wish you had a pair of helping hands, but it sounds like you're doing great.

"Crying out" is awful, but that's the only way we could get our "N" to sleep. Worst yet we had to do it until she was 4 or so.

Cheryl

Tracey said...

:::hugs:::

Hang in there, my kids could turn on a dime with teething. Motrin is your friend - and can often make them fall asleep on its own.

I'd love to be able to come grab the laundry out of your hands and do it for you. But if you have too - have her stand with you and watch on the tub. I bet she'd be fascinated and stay there.

And ya, i'd skip the salad... i've had that problem on a plane sans kids and ya, virtual greens.

Lots more hugs chicky - you can do this!

:::hugs::::

Jeanne said...

Hang in there! Mothering is the toughest job out there.

My 2 cents on the newness of your relationship is to not use cry it out. Why not just lie down with her? It's OK if she's stimulated by that. #1 task is for her to learn your love. Sleeping, eating, laundry can all come later.

On the other hand, if you get to the point where you can't take it, then by all means separate yourself so you can calm down.

Caroline said...

Aw.... poor thing (and I'm referring to both of you). Leaving the baby home probably does feel like the whole world has changed for her and yours has too. Esp. because you are on your own.

You'll find your routine - hang in there b.c you are amazing and it will be so great when you get home too. It will all be fine and I know deep down you know that!! ((hugs))